tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-140680172011-04-22T12:13:25.584+08:00My life is an ordinary tragedy. Tears overflow, wounds bleed and heal, moments become memories, laughter starts and fades, love comes and goes...rosieposiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13070611998958119056noreply@blogger.comBlogger131100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14068017.post-1150333214001826882006-06-15T08:58:00.000+08:002006-06-15T09:00:14.016+08:00i will write about 2 realizations today. well, i already know about them before but these things became highlighted yesterday.<br />first is about what 3 guys told me, 'lust for one woman can never be satisfied with another woman.' hhhmmmm... that is why guys can never be monogamous. i am not saying that guys should, though i'm only saying that this is the reason why most married men 'sway'. this is just like saying that if you're craving for a siomai, shawarma could never satisfy that. after a few hours that the hunger has been satiated, you start drooling again for siomai. and by the way, it's not the guys. girls, too, suffer this feeling once in a while. there's just this feeling of something for a particular someone that you can never feel with another person. and lusting for someone can happen too, not just the feeling of spark, intensity or electricity.<br />Next, when a girl wants to find someone permanent, she realizes many things. 1) The good guys are already taken. 2) The good guys who are not taken, do not suit your taste. 3) The good guys who are not taken and who suit your taste find you not suitable for their taste 4) The good guys who are not taken and who suit your taste, find you suitable only for fornication. 5) Then the rest of the guys are either gay or priests. What does a girl do? Would she settle for someone really not satisfactory for her preference? Or would she settle only for the 'temporary' thing?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><script language="JavaScript" type="text/javascript" src="http://www.tag-world.com/js.php?username=denialanddepression"></script> <table width="200" border="1" bordercolor="#000000" cellspacing="1"> <tr> <td width=200 valign=top> <p align="center"><iframe src="http://www.tag-world.com/tag.php?username=denialanddepression" name="tagboard" width="100%" height="190" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0"></iframe><br><a href="http://tag-world.com" target="_blank">Tagboard by Tag-World</a></p> </td> </tr> <tr> <td> <form action="http://www.tag-world.com/add.php" method="post" name="tagform" target="tagboard"> <input type="hidden" name="username" value="denialanddepression"> Name:<br> <input name="nme" maxlength="20"><br> URL or Email:<br> <input name="emurl" maxlength="100"><br> Message [<a href="http://www.tag-world.com/smilies.php?username=denialanddepression" onClick="return popsmilies();" target="_blank">Smilies</a>]:<br> <textarea cols="24" rows="3" name="msg"></textarea><br> <input class=button type="submit" value=" Tag " onclick="return return_message();"></form></td></tr></table><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/14068017-115033321400182688?l=denialanddepression.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>rosieposiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13070611998958119056noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14068017.post-1130409018675498002005-10-27T18:08:00.000+08:002005-10-27T18:30:18.686+08:00<span style="color: rgb(153, 255, 153); font-family: georgia; font-style: italic;">I'm reading Jessica Zafra's book. I really admire her wit, sarcasm and bitchiness. Mind you, we have some commonalities. We drool over Keanu Reeves even if we know that his sexual preference is... (let's say) interesting. And we both are bitches. I am one of her hated people though--I smoke. Her outlook on things is just so different that sometimes I wish I could be like her. </span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><script language="JavaScript" type="text/javascript" src="http://www.tag-world.com/js.php?username=denialanddepression"></script> <table width="200" border="1" bordercolor="#000000" cellspacing="1"> <tr> <td width=200 valign=top> <p align="center"><iframe src="http://www.tag-world.com/tag.php?username=denialanddepression" name="tagboard" width="100%" height="190" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0"></iframe><br><a href="http://tag-world.com" target="_blank">Tagboard by Tag-World</a></p> </td> </tr> <tr> <td> <form action="http://www.tag-world.com/add.php" method="post" name="tagform" target="tagboard"> <input type="hidden" name="username" value="denialanddepression"> Name:<br> <input name="nme" maxlength="20"><br> URL or Email:<br> <input name="emurl" maxlength="100"><br> Message [<a href="http://www.tag-world.com/smilies.php?username=denialanddepression" onClick="return popsmilies();" target="_blank">Smilies</a>]:<br> <textarea cols="24" rows="3" name="msg"></textarea><br> <input class=button type="submit" value=" Tag " onclick="return return_message();"></form></td></tr></table><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/14068017-113040901867549800?l=denialanddepression.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>rosieposiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13070611998958119056noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14068017.post-1128413461308870852005-10-04T16:06:00.000+08:002005-10-27T18:08:06.040+08:00I am so tired. Not my physical body, but my mind, my heart, my soul. And it would consume my physical strength. I have so many why's, so many heartaches, so many worries, so many hang-ups.<br /><br />I hope all would end... they would stop.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><script language="JavaScript" type="text/javascript" src="http://www.tag-world.com/js.php?username=denialanddepression"></script> <table width="200" border="1" bordercolor="#000000" cellspacing="1"> <tr> <td width=200 valign=top> <p align="center"><iframe src="http://www.tag-world.com/tag.php?username=denialanddepression" name="tagboard" width="100%" height="190" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0"></iframe><br><a href="http://tag-world.com" target="_blank">Tagboard by Tag-World</a></p> </td> </tr> <tr> <td> <form action="http://www.tag-world.com/add.php" method="post" name="tagform" target="tagboard"> <input type="hidden" name="username" value="denialanddepression"> Name:<br> <input name="nme" maxlength="20"><br> URL or Email:<br> <input name="emurl" maxlength="100"><br> Message [<a href="http://www.tag-world.com/smilies.php?username=denialanddepression" onClick="return popsmilies();" target="_blank">Smilies</a>]:<br> <textarea cols="24" rows="3" name="msg"></textarea><br> <input class=button type="submit" value=" Tag " onclick="return return_message();"></form></td></tr></table><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/14068017-112841346130887085?l=denialanddepression.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>rosieposiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13070611998958119056noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14068017.post-1127902424037509682005-09-28T16:25:00.000+08:002005-10-04T16:05:43.993+08:00Today, I, again, retold my story. Remembering past hurt doesn't hurt that much as before. However it would make you realize how stupid and dumb you have been, how cruel were those persons who hurt you and how unfair life had been.<br /><br />Tears wouldn't fall because of the hurt that you feel but of pity on your past pathetic self. You cry of how foolish and gullible you have been. You cry of the anger not on the other people who hve hurt you but on yourself.<br /><br />...and you cry because you don't want to cry but you just can't stop the tears.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><script language="JavaScript" type="text/javascript" src="http://www.tag-world.com/js.php?username=denialanddepression"></script> <table width="200" border="1" bordercolor="#000000" cellspacing="1"> <tr> <td width=200 valign=top> <p align="center"><iframe src="http://www.tag-world.com/tag.php?username=denialanddepression" name="tagboard" width="100%" height="190" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0"></iframe><br><a href="http://tag-world.com" target="_blank">Tagboard by Tag-World</a></p> </td> </tr> <tr> <td> <form action="http://www.tag-world.com/add.php" method="post" name="tagform" target="tagboard"> <input type="hidden" name="username" value="denialanddepression"> Name:<br> <input name="nme" maxlength="20"><br> URL or Email:<br> <input name="emurl" maxlength="100"><br> Message [<a href="http://www.tag-world.com/smilies.php?username=denialanddepression" onClick="return popsmilies();" target="_blank">Smilies</a>]:<br> <textarea cols="24" rows="3" name="msg"></textarea><br> <input class=button type="submit" value=" Tag " onclick="return return_message();"></form></td></tr></table><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/14068017-112790242403750968?l=denialanddepression.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>rosieposiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13070611998958119056noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14068017.post-1126646795922185742005-09-14T05:10:00.000+08:002005-09-14T05:26:35.926+08:00<span style="font-family:arial;color:#ccccff;"><strong>Yes, I am a guy-magnet- but the wrong sort of guys. All the wrong guys, you name it. Jerks, perverts, maniacs, sexually-famished guys, married guys, dirty old men, etc. </strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;color:#ccccff;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;color:#ccccff;"><strong>I need to prove my claim, right? While I was waiting for a jeepney to the office, here's this guy going to and fro in front of me. Then he finally settled about 2 meters behind me which really freaked me out. I thought he was a hold-upper. So, I said in a very ordinary manner, 'Hold-up-on ko nimo? Wala ko'y kuwarta. Sorry.' In answer, he mumbled a few words which I found hard to hear. I asked, 'Unsa? I wasn't able to hear what you said.' He mumbled his words again but this time the message was clear. 'blah, blah, blah. Mag-M lang ko.' A guy just said he will do-his-own in front of me at the side of the street in front of our boarding house! The red lights are blinking now, but I just replied, 'Ahh ok... Magpalayo lang ko ha?'</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;color:#ccccff;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;color:#ccccff;"><strong>You could not attribute that to what I was wearing. I was just dressed in a simple conservative blue blouse, jeans, rubber shoes and a cap. I don't know what I'm going to think. Maybe I am just a guy-magnet.</strong></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><script language="JavaScript" type="text/javascript" src="http://www.tag-world.com/js.php?username=denialanddepression"></script> <table width="200" border="1" bordercolor="#000000" cellspacing="1"> <tr> <td width=200 valign=top> <p align="center"><iframe src="http://www.tag-world.com/tag.php?username=denialanddepression" name="tagboard" width="100%" height="190" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0"></iframe><br><a href="http://tag-world.com" target="_blank">Tagboard by Tag-World</a></p> </td> </tr> <tr> <td> <form action="http://www.tag-world.com/add.php" method="post" name="tagform" target="tagboard"> <input type="hidden" name="username" value="denialanddepression"> Name:<br> <input name="nme" maxlength="20"><br> URL or Email:<br> <input name="emurl" maxlength="100"><br> Message [<a href="http://www.tag-world.com/smilies.php?username=denialanddepression" onClick="return popsmilies();" target="_blank">Smilies</a>]:<br> <textarea cols="24" rows="3" name="msg"></textarea><br> <input class=button type="submit" value=" Tag " onclick="return return_message();"></form></td></tr></table><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/14068017-112664679592218574?l=denialanddepression.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>rosieposiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13070611998958119056noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14068017.post-1125490508989509922005-08-31T19:58:00.000+08:002005-08-31T20:15:09.000+08:00<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#99ff99;"><strong>Today started out wrong and will end wrong. All things came wrong. First, I was almost late for work and I took a taxi even if it's out of my budget. Second, my boss caught me sleeping (when really meant to sleep to ebb the pain in my stomach due to hyperacidity). Third, my boss(again!) reprimanded me on openning personal stuff in the Internet even if I'm already clocked out(he said I'm consuming bandwidth). Fourth, the first person I hired told me that he will be resigning because his family will be relocating to Singapore. Fifth, my back is killing me. Sixth, I still have to do my laundry and we don't have water in the house. Seventh, I have 3 assignments unfinished for our training.</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#99ff99;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#99ff99;"><strong>I don't know if I'm still dizzy in effect of the medicine that I took this morning or because of all the wrong things today. I'm tired.</strong></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><script language="JavaScript" type="text/javascript" src="http://www.tag-world.com/js.php?username=denialanddepression"></script> <table width="200" border="1" bordercolor="#000000" cellspacing="1"> <tr> <td width=200 valign=top> <p align="center"><iframe src="http://www.tag-world.com/tag.php?username=denialanddepression" name="tagboard" width="100%" height="190" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0"></iframe><br><a href="http://tag-world.com" target="_blank">Tagboard by Tag-World</a></p> </td> </tr> <tr> <td> <form action="http://www.tag-world.com/add.php" method="post" name="tagform" target="tagboard"> <input type="hidden" name="username" value="denialanddepression"> Name:<br> <input name="nme" maxlength="20"><br> URL or Email:<br> <input name="emurl" maxlength="100"><br> Message [<a href="http://www.tag-world.com/smilies.php?username=denialanddepression" onClick="return popsmilies();" target="_blank">Smilies</a>]:<br> <textarea cols="24" rows="3" name="msg"></textarea><br> <input class=button type="submit" value=" Tag " onclick="return return_message();"></form></td></tr></table><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/14068017-112549050898950992?l=denialanddepression.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>rosieposiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13070611998958119056noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14068017.post-1123988060516893032005-08-14T10:47:00.000+08:002005-08-14T10:54:20.523+08:00<span style="color:#ccccff;">I am, as of the moment, idle. Jut a little bored, I think. Are you?</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><script language="JavaScript" type="text/javascript" src="http://www.tag-world.com/js.php?username=denialanddepression"></script> <table width="200" border="1" bordercolor="#000000" cellspacing="1"> <tr> <td width=200 valign=top> <p align="center"><iframe src="http://www.tag-world.com/tag.php?username=denialanddepression" name="tagboard" width="100%" height="190" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0"></iframe><br><a href="http://tag-world.com" target="_blank">Tagboard by Tag-World</a></p> </td> </tr> <tr> <td> <form action="http://www.tag-world.com/add.php" method="post" name="tagform" target="tagboard"> <input type="hidden" name="username" value="denialanddepression"> Name:<br> <input name="nme" maxlength="20"><br> URL or Email:<br> <input name="emurl" maxlength="100"><br> Message [<a href="http://www.tag-world.com/smilies.php?username=denialanddepression" onClick="return popsmilies();" target="_blank">Smilies</a>]:<br> <textarea cols="24" rows="3" name="msg"></textarea><br> <input class=button type="submit" value=" Tag " onclick="return return_message();"></form></td></tr></table><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/14068017-112398806051689303?l=denialanddepression.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>rosieposiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13070611998958119056noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14068017.post-1122733809683205842005-07-30T22:10:00.000+08:002005-09-05T12:16:58.086+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/6087/1261/1600/rose.jpg"><img style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/6087/1261/320/rose.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">Someone has said that I have so many questions... Questions about myself which can only be answered by me. </span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">Well, life would not be exciting if I know all the answers.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">But anyway, I'll be sleeping alone tonight and I don't have work the next day. Why didn't I receive an invitiation for a date or something? Why do guys come in when I have to work the next day? Duh! </span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">I want to shout, get drunk and throw up. I could not do that! I'm frustrated!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><script language="JavaScript" type="text/javascript" src="http://www.tag-world.com/js.php?username=denialanddepression"></script> <table width="200" border="1" bordercolor="#000000" cellspacing="1"> <tr> <td width=200 valign=top> <p align="center"><iframe src="http://www.tag-world.com/tag.php?username=denialanddepression" name="tagboard" width="100%" height="190" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0"></iframe><br><a href="http://tag-world.com" target="_blank">Tagboard by Tag-World</a></p> </td> </tr> <tr> <td> <form action="http://www.tag-world.com/add.php" method="post" name="tagform" target="tagboard"> <input type="hidden" name="username" value="denialanddepression"> Name:<br> <input name="nme" maxlength="20"><br> URL or Email:<br> <input name="emurl" maxlength="100"><br> Message [<a href="http://www.tag-world.com/smilies.php?username=denialanddepression" onClick="return popsmilies();" target="_blank">Smilies</a>]:<br> <textarea cols="24" rows="3" name="msg"></textarea><br> <input class=button type="submit" value=" Tag " onclick="return return_message();"></form></td></tr></table><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/14068017-112273380968320584?l=denialanddepression.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>rosieposiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13070611998958119056noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14068017.post-1120426963433232362005-07-04T05:31:00.000+08:002005-09-06T05:54:43.073+08:00<span style="font-family:courier new;color:#ccccff;">Yesterday, I saw an old acquaintance. He was my ex's co-worker. We talked about the past, what I did to bring back my ex before, and the lives that the people of Body &amp; Sole are leading. He said that he couldn't imagine why I was hell-bent on bringing him (former bf) back to me when I was much for him: sexy, having a nice job and smart. He was giving me compliment on this but he was also saying that I was so dumb at that time. He wondered what was in my ex that 2 girls had been fighting over him when he was just a 'masahista', 'kimpang' and a guy with no great accomplishments. He even said he didn't look that good. I could laugh at my self now. </span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;color:#ccccff;">I agree with him. Maybe I didn't realize that my mind is over my heart. Love doesn't make sense. If it does, then the world doesn't make sense.</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><script language="JavaScript" type="text/javascript" src="http://www.tag-world.com/js.php?username=denialanddepression"></script> <table width="200" border="1" bordercolor="#000000" cellspacing="1"> <tr> <td width=200 valign=top> <p align="center"><iframe src="http://www.tag-world.com/tag.php?username=denialanddepression" name="tagboard" width="100%" height="190" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0"></iframe><br><a href="http://tag-world.com" target="_blank">Tagboard by Tag-World</a></p> </td> </tr> <tr> <td> <form action="http://www.tag-world.com/add.php" method="post" name="tagform" target="tagboard"> <input type="hidden" name="username" value="denialanddepression"> Name:<br> <input name="nme" maxlength="20"><br> URL or Email:<br> <input name="emurl" maxlength="100"><br> Message [<a href="http://www.tag-world.com/smilies.php?username=denialanddepression" onClick="return popsmilies();" target="_blank">Smilies</a>]:<br> <textarea cols="24" rows="3" name="msg"></textarea><br> <input class=button type="submit" value=" Tag " onclick="return return_message();"></form></td></tr></table><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/14068017-112042696343323236?l=denialanddepression.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>rosieposiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13070611998958119056noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14068017.post-1120257177753750212005-07-02T06:19:00.000+08:002005-07-02T06:32:57.756+08:00I am reading Julie Garwood's Guardian Angel. I just finished another one of her novels--I forgot the title. It's just so amazing how novelists describe feelings. (Like when the guy looks at the girl and just have the urge to kiss her. Or when the guy really really wants to make love to the girl but tries hard to stop himself for he respects her. Arghh!!!) Is that real? Have they experienced the same? Or those are just repressed desires? For one, the leading men in novels are very fictional (big men, tall, handsome, rich, powerful, protective, and honorable???). However, when we, women, read it, we would wish that it's true. That someone would make our knees weak. That someone would protect us even if it meant his life. *Sigh*<div class="blogger-post-footer"><script language="JavaScript" type="text/javascript" src="http://www.tag-world.com/js.php?username=denialanddepression"></script> <table width="200" border="1" bordercolor="#000000" cellspacing="1"> <tr> <td width=200 valign=top> <p align="center"><iframe src="http://www.tag-world.com/tag.php?username=denialanddepression" name="tagboard" width="100%" height="190" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0"></iframe><br><a href="http://tag-world.com" target="_blank">Tagboard by Tag-World</a></p> </td> </tr> <tr> <td> <form action="http://www.tag-world.com/add.php" method="post" name="tagform" target="tagboard"> <input type="hidden" name="username" value="denialanddepression"> Name:<br> <input name="nme" maxlength="20"><br> URL or Email:<br> <input name="emurl" maxlength="100"><br> Message [<a href="http://www.tag-world.com/smilies.php?username=denialanddepression" onClick="return popsmilies();" target="_blank">Smilies</a>]:<br> <textarea cols="24" rows="3" name="msg"></textarea><br> <input class=button type="submit" value=" Tag " onclick="return return_message();"></form></td></tr></table><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/14068017-112025717775375021?l=denialanddepression.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>rosieposiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13070611998958119056noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14068017.post-1120093018456328502005-07-01T11:58:00.000+08:002005-09-05T12:19:09.623+08:00<div align="center"><span style="color:#ffcccc;">It's an ordinary day-- I am at work (alone), a radio playing in the background, and my stomach rumbling from hunger but I can't go out to buy something. It's an ordinary day alright. I am whining in my mind why other people's lives are much better than the others. I'm always dissatisfied---and that is ordinary and usual.</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffcccc;">Last night, a certain Tebz called me. He got my number from SMS.ac (I posted it, I think.--Shame on me!) Just that. I know it will be temporary and for a very short time. At least, my life wouldn't be boring.</span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><script language="JavaScript" type="text/javascript" src="http://www.tag-world.com/js.php?username=denialanddepression"></script> <table width="200" border="1" bordercolor="#000000" cellspacing="1"> <tr> <td width=200 valign=top> <p align="center"><iframe src="http://www.tag-world.com/tag.php?username=denialanddepression" name="tagboard" width="100%" height="190" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0"></iframe><br><a href="http://tag-world.com" target="_blank">Tagboard by Tag-World</a></p> </td> </tr> <tr> <td> <form action="http://www.tag-world.com/add.php" method="post" name="tagform" target="tagboard"> <input type="hidden" name="username" value="denialanddepression"> Name:<br> <input name="nme" maxlength="20"><br> URL or Email:<br> <input name="emurl" maxlength="100"><br> Message [<a href="http://www.tag-world.com/smilies.php?username=denialanddepression" onClick="return popsmilies();" target="_blank">Smilies</a>]:<br> <textarea cols="24" rows="3" name="msg"></textarea><br> <input class=button type="submit" value=" Tag " onclick="return return_message();"></form></td></tr></table><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/14068017-112009301845632850?l=denialanddepression.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>rosieposiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13070611998958119056noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14068017.post-1120166099186066372004-03-12T10:30:00.000+08:002005-07-01T05:14:59.190+08:00<strong><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#99ffff;">Just when I thought it's over, the feeling rushes again. Last night I called you and begged a little of your time. I know it's pathetic. All the while I thought that I am starting to forget you. Behind all my defenses, I kept you.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#99ffff;">I hate this feeling. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#99ffff;">I remember little things we did together. You biting my nose, shopping together in the supermarket, doing the laundry...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#99ffff;">But all of these you forgot. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#99ffff;">You spoke of love being forever. We have plans for our wedding. You already named our first baby. We dreamt of our little dream house.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#99ffff;">All of these you forgot.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#99ffff;">I have all these locked in my heart. Or these are the lock of my heart? I know it needs to fade away but I can't seem to find the right key.</span></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><script language="JavaScript" type="text/javascript" src="http://www.tag-world.com/js.php?username=denialanddepression"></script> <table width="200" border="1" bordercolor="#000000" cellspacing="1"> <tr> <td width=200 valign=top> <p align="center"><iframe src="http://www.tag-world.com/tag.php?username=denialanddepression" name="tagboard" width="100%" height="190" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0"></iframe><br><a href="http://tag-world.com" target="_blank">Tagboard by Tag-World</a></p> </td> </tr> <tr> <td> <form action="http://www.tag-world.com/add.php" method="post" name="tagform" target="tagboard"> <input type="hidden" name="username" value="denialanddepression"> Name:<br> <input name="nme" maxlength="20"><br> URL or Email:<br> <input name="emurl" maxlength="100"><br> Message [<a href="http://www.tag-world.com/smilies.php?username=denialanddepression" onClick="return popsmilies();" target="_blank">Smilies</a>]:<br> <textarea cols="24" rows="3" name="msg"></textarea><br> <input class=button type="submit" value=" Tag " onclick="return return_message();"></form></td></tr></table><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/14068017-112016609918606637?l=denialanddepression.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>rosieposiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13070611998958119056noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14068017.post-1120165359824868342004-03-05T05:42:00.000+08:002005-07-02T06:18:18.700+08:00<span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#ffccff;"><strong><em>You're gone now. You can't imagine how much I'm missing you. Everytime I look at the door, I keep seeing you entering.</em></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#ffccff;"><strong><em>Everytime I cry now, no tears would flow. I cry inside and I hurt... so much. But still I go on hoping that maybe one night you woud appear at my door. I know I'm just hurting myself, but I could not stop it. I just wis and wish that you will remember your love for me. </em></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#ffccff;"><strong><em>I'm doing my best to forget you and move on but everytime I take a step, I look back. I find myself say, "If only God can grant me just one prayer..." I guess I don't know how to let go.</em></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#ffccff;"><strong><em>I still love you so much that it hurts.</em></strong></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><script language="JavaScript" type="text/javascript" src="http://www.tag-world.com/js.php?username=denialanddepression"></script> <table width="200" border="1" bordercolor="#000000" cellspacing="1"> <tr> <td width=200 valign=top> <p align="center"><iframe src="http://www.tag-world.com/tag.php?username=denialanddepression" name="tagboard" width="100%" height="190" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0"></iframe><br><a href="http://tag-world.com" target="_blank">Tagboard by Tag-World</a></p> </td> </tr> <tr> <td> <form action="http://www.tag-world.com/add.php" method="post" name="tagform" target="tagboard"> <input type="hidden" name="username" value="denialanddepression"> Name:<br> <input name="nme" maxlength="20"><br> URL or Email:<br> <input name="emurl" maxlength="100"><br> Message [<a href="http://www.tag-world.com/smilies.php?username=denialanddepression" onClick="return popsmilies();" target="_blank">Smilies</a>]:<br> <textarea cols="24" rows="3" name="msg"></textarea><br> <input class=button type="submit" value=" Tag " onclick="return return_message();"></form></td></tr></table><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/14068017-112016535982486834?l=denialanddepression.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>rosieposiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13070611998958119056noreply@blogger.com0